The Never Ending Beginning — New Moon Pisces
What if everything works out in the end?
That all the time you spend worrying about things not going your way or how you hoped, imagined or wished it to be, isn’t actually all that bad. Maybe, when things go wrong or move beyond your control its actually working its self out.
What if all your pain, anguish, and turmoil is attuning you into a new frequency of resilience?
What if everything is going to be okay?
I wonder….do you?
Come with me now on a journey to the end.
Take a moment here to take a few deep breaths.
Allowing your body to relax, feeling how it pulsates and echoes your breath.
Imagine that your feet are covered in warm black sand and you are standing in front of a vast dark blue ocean.
The sun has already set and the night sky has risen illuminating the billions of stars within our galaxy.
It is just you and the sea and the infinite stars above.
A star catches your eye as it appears to be coming closer to the horizon stretched out in front of you.
The star appears to have crashed into the ocean causing a rippling golden path that moves all the way to the edge of your shoreline.
You move towards the water and as you place your foot on the light it becomes a solid path.
Now walking towards the horizon the stars continue to get bigger, the sea calmer and your heart beats faster.
The light continues to spread across the horizon and now looks like a field of golden stars shinning above the ocean.
At the edge, stands a tall tree, its branches covered in stardust and the fallen star nestled between its purging roots.
Coming closer, the tree becomes larger than life and the star has become a doorknob on the thick golden trunk.
You turn the doorknob and the trunk opens like a doorway.
As you enter into the darkness the door closes behind you and a spiral staircase appears below you.
You look up and around, but there is nothing there, only the stairs below.
Take a deep breath. Its going to be okay.
Take it step by step, down into the dark.
Step by step.
Breath by breath.
Soon you become surrounded by water, as if you are taking the stairs into the oceans depth.
Whales and dolphins swim around you.
Turtles twirl by you.
All the creatures of the deep greet you as you keep taking step by step.
When you arrive at the bottom of the staircase you come once again to complete darkness.
You feel around for a door, a light or a sign.
Take a breath.
Nothing to do.
No where to go.
Now there is a single red light dancing in front of your eyes.
It leads you through a tunnel.
Trusting it you follow.
Soon a larger light appears and you step out into the underwater cave.
You have reached the earth’s core.
In the center, there is a moonlit gem that fills the entire cave with light and a sound similar to those of angels whispers.
Above you, all the roots of the entire world gather and together they wrap around the heart of mother earth.
A rainbow bridge appears and allows you to step upon it.
It moves you closer to the pulsing heart stone and you can see your reflection.
You can begin to see everything.
Everything that has ever happened to you.
Everything that you have ever felt, thought, noticed or experienced in your life.
It doesn’t flash by, its not quick to move from one thing to the next. In fact, its all in slow motion, appearing as little gems sparkling as they move around the screen.
Its all there.
All the good and the scary, confusing and weird things.
All the love, joy, bliss and beautiful mistakes.
Now you see yourself, in the center of all of it.
Take notice, of how you may look in this moment.
Are you older or younger?
Do you look the same or has something changed.
All the images of your life lift from the gem and begin to spiral above you.
Until they all crystallize into a brilliant red light and becomes a radiant ruby that gets placed in your hands.
Take a moment to look at this incredible gift glowing from your hands.
Bring it up to your chest and imagine that it gets placed right next to your heart.
Filling your entire body with the incredible primal life force of all that was, all that has ever been and all that ever will be.
Take a deep breath here.
And another.
One more.
Begin to wiggle your toes and fingers. Feel your hair against your skin, smell the familiar fragrance of your space.
Be here now.
In the center of your everything.
How do you feel now? Knowing that everything you have ever lived, ever known, ever experienced dwells within you and you are still standing.
That you cannot end and everything continues to work itself out.
And no matter what the world does, you are okay.
The Never Ending Beginning asks you to go out and experience this life, to create a body of memories that will be worth remembering for all of time.
New Moon Prayer
When I come to what lies after
May my remembrance
be given with laughter
When I dance my way to the end
of all that could have been
please recite how nothing ever truly ends
without a second chance
or third
and is always at my grasp
to return,
to try it over again.
New Moon Musings
Is there something you are worried about? Something that hasn’t actually happened yet? Maybe this something is really important that needs to go right in order for all these other things to work out? Or maybe, its just all the infinite possibilities of the great unknown that keeps you imagining the worst outcome. Now, what if, this thing or implausible future is actually going to be amazing? What if instead of something bad happening, something unexpected and whimsically lovely is on its way? Do you want to take a moment to write out what you are most worried about and then writing out this possible outcome? Use your imagination, return to the heart stone and ask how will I want to remember this? Take a chance on hope and see what miracles lay afoot. May all be blessed, And so it is.
Nicole Marie is a Storyteller + Astrologer sharing with others on how to become the storytellers of their own life. Join her on the Embodied Storytellers Podcast and learn more about her offerings at Nicole Marie Astrology
